Grandpa

Update: Unfortunately my Grandpa Brown passed away on November 14, 2010. I'm glad that he can be with his Heavenly Father and his earthly parents. I will always miss him dearly.
When I wrote this, my Grandpa Brown was in a home for people with Alzheimers.

 I was I love my grandpa B. soooo much! And I finally got to see him! It was great to see him, and he was even himself sometimes. I loved it, and was just so happy! I love hearing about all the memories he has. He is just an interesting man! Even thinking about it almost has me in tears. I just have a couple of lyrics to tell about my grandpa and how amazing he is!

I'd Give it All For You
No, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it ‘cause the mountains I climb
Get higher and higher
I'm running from time
And walking through fire
And dreams just don't come true
But now there's you

God knows it's easy to hide,
Easy to hide from the things that you feel
And harder to blindly trust
What you can't understand

God knows it's easy to run,
Easy to run from the people you love
And harder to stand and fight
For the things you believe

There were oceans to cross
There were mountains to conquer
And I stood on the shore
And I stood on the cliff
And the second before I jumped
I knew where I needed to be

Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it ‘cause it's harder to touch
The things that are dearer
I love you too much
To trust something clearer
I know I fell too far
But here you are

For Good
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Come What May
Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day



I just love how music expresses how I feel so perfectly. And I know that this is all happening for a reason. I am growing from this experience.

Poem: Everything

Everything happens for a reason
Whether good or bad
It happens for a reason

Everything happens for a reason
Although it's heartbreaking
It happens for reason

Whether good or bad
Whether happy or sad
Whether exciting or terrifying
Everything happens for a reason

Sometimes we may blame
Sometimes we become angry
Sometimes we question
But everything happens for a reason

Believe me when I say
It's for our own good
And everything happens for a reason

Song Sunday: Let it Be

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.



For everyone going through hard times.

Poem Thursday: Dreams

Dreams Can

Dreams can keep you awake at night
Dreams can not be touched by science

Dreams are questioned
Dreams are thought up

Dreams give answers
Dreams give lies

Dreams show insight
Dreams show the future

Dreams aren't something known
Dreams aren't something physical

Dreams can make you question
Dreams can think of your life

Dreams Can

Photo/Song Wednesday: I'd Give It All For You

First off, I'm sorry that this is late, but better late than never, right?

I had a house while you were gone
The week after you left me
I found a couple acres
Near Sarilla Park
I had a house while you were gone
A house with silver shutters
And a driveway laid in marble
And thousands of rooms to fill
And miles of space to fly
And I tried to believe it,
It was better without you
I was safer alone

No, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all to hold you again
To feel I'm completed
To know there and then
That all that I needed
Was you to fight the fear
And now you're here

I took a trip while I was gone
I cashed in all my savings
And bought an Eldorado
Drove to Tennessee
I took a trip while I was gone
I drove across the country
And I stopped at lots of diners
And stared at a million stars
And thought I could touch the sky
And I tried to believe it,
It was better without you
I was finally free

No, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I'd give it all for you
I'd give it ‘cause the mountains I climb
Get higher and higher
I'm running from time
And walking through fire
And dreams just don't come true
But now there's you

God knows it's easy to hide,
Easy to hide from the things that you feel
And harder to blindly trust
What you can't understand

God knows it's easy to run,
Easy to run from the people you love
And harder to stand and fight
For the things you believe

Nothing about us was perfect or clear
But when paradise calls me
I'd rather be here
There's something between us
That nobody else needs to see

There were oceans to cross
There were mountains to conquer
And I stood on the shore
And I stood on the cliff
And the second before I jumped
I knew where I needed to be

Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it all for you by my side once more
Oh, I gave it all for you
I gave it ‘cause it's harder to touch
The things that are dearer
I love you too much
To trust something clearer
I know I fell too far
But here you are

From the musical, Songs for a New World, and it's not just about romance for me, but friendship and family. I LOVE this song!

The Last Goodnight - "Pictures of You"

This is the song Megan, Katelyn, and I are dancing to for social dance! It's going to be awesome!

AP Test

Today was the AP test. It was ok....I think I did pretty good. The multiple choice was the hardest part. I have a song for today, that has gotten me through this class (And hard days):

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes,
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear.
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
In cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure
A year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love? Measure in love

Seasons of love. Seasons of love

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes!
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Journeys to plan.

Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life
Of a woman or a man?

In truths that she learned,
Or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
Or the way that she died.

It's time now to sing out,
Tho' the story never ends
Let's celebrate
Remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love!
Remember the love!
Seasons of love!

Oh you got to got to
Remember the love!
You know that love is a gift from up above
Share love, give love spread love
Measure measure your life in love.

I love this song, and it's very true to me. In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights.
Remember the love in your life.

Oh and I am going to post my inspirational music playlist! Here it is:
Seasons of Love-Rent
Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again-Phantom of the Opera
One Day I'll Fly Away-Moulin Rouge
Stars and the Moon-Songs for a New World
Revolution-Beatles/Across the Universe
Black Bird-Beatles/Across the Universe
Flying-Beatles/Across the Universe
Hey Jude-Beatles/Across the Universe
Don't let Me Down-Beatles/Across the Universe
Strawberry Fields Forever-Beatles/Across the Universe
Come Together-Beatles/Across the Universe
Rent-Rent
Your Song-Moulin Rouge
Proud Mary-Glee
Something-Beatles/Across the Universe
I'd Give It All For You-Songs for a New World
One Song Glory-Rent
I'll Stand By You-Glee
Come What May-Moulin Rouge
Defying Gravity-Glee/Wicked
Imagine-John Lennon/Glee
Opening: The New World-Songs for a New World
If I Fell-Beatles/Across the Universe
While My Guitar Gently Weeps-Beatles/Across the Universe
I am the Walrus-Beatles/Across the Universe
Smile-Glee/Charlie Chaplin
Girl-Beatles/Across the Universe
I'm Not Afraid of Anything-Songs for a New World
Blue Jay Way-Beatles/Across the Universe
Dear Prudence-Beatles/Across the Universe
Bad Day-Daniel Powter
Keep Holding On-Glee
Don't Stop Believin'-Glee/Journey
Elephant Love Medley-Moulin Rouge
Across the Universe-Beatles/Across the Universe
Lean on Me-Glee
Somebody to Love-Glee
True Colors-Glee
All You Need is Love-Beatles/Across the Universe
Because-Beatles/Across the Universe
My Life Would Suck without You-Glee
Hold Me Tight-Beatles/Across the Universe
No Air-Glee
(And probably many more!)

Poem Thursday: Nothing is the Same

Nothing is the Same

Nothing is the same today
Everything has changed
No one knows,
That on the inside you are emotionally spent.

Nothing is the same today
As you walk through school,
You see everything differently
You appreciate the little things

Nothing is the same
Because you know something different
Because he's not the same
And you want it to be back the way it was

Nothing is the same
But everything is the same
You are different
Affecting the way you live

Nothing is the same
Nothing is the expected
This is only the beginning
Of a long awful road

Nothing is the same
Everyday is different
Tragic or uplifting
Everyday something is different

Nothing is the same
Although you try to keep it that way

Photo/Song Wednesday: Bad Day

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong


So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

I first fell in love with the song when my best friend Sarah and I watched a youtube video. It was about Harry Potter and this was in the back ground, and right as it hit the loud chorus, the video of Hermione hitting Draco came up. We laughed and laughed, and I listened to it ever since. Today has been a bad day for me. I've been sick and my grandpa went to the hospital at 2am. I really don't want to go into details. But it's been hard and music is my only output. On Glee last night the character Rachel lost her voice for a little bit. My cousin, Charlene was reminded of me when she said, "I'm like tinkerbell...I need applause to live." I need music. It needs me. So this is my Wednesday. Oh and I get to go take a practice AP test. Yay me...
Here's the picture that goes along with this day:

Happy Mother's Day!

This mother's day, I am sick. But I made my mom a kind of card thing. I found quotes about moms, and I wrote a poem using song lyrics. I'll post the words I put on it. :D

“Children seldom misquote you. They more often repeat word for word what you shouldn’t have said.” -Mae Maloo

"Mothers of teenagers know why animals eat their young." ~ Author Unknown

Mama who bore me

I’d give it all for you
In daylights, in sunsets
I’d give it all for you

My life would suck without you
Come what may
My life would suck without you

I’ll give you stars and the moon
That’s all I know
I’ll give you stars and the moon

I’ll stand by you
When there are clouds in the sky
I’ll stand by you

I will follow where you lead

“The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.”

-Erma Bombeck


"I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once." 

-Jennifer Unlimited

"My mother had a great deal of trouble with me, but I think she enjoyed it."
~ Mark Twain

"So thank you for reminding me about the importance of being a good mom and a great volunteer as well."
-President George W. Bush (I do believe I got this off a sight that said, "unintentionally funny" HAHA!)

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.
Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.
That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.
Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
If you just smile.

Where You Lead
I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need-(If)you need me to be with you
I will follow
Where you lead

If you're out on the road
Feelin' lonely and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there
On the next train

Poem Thursday: Silence

I have recently starting writing again, and to get myself to keep writing I am going to post some recent poetry I've written, every Thursday. Comment whether you like or not. I love all criticism! I will also give a little background, but I want you to interpret as you will. :D

I wrote this last night, it's pretty easy to figure out.

Silence

The silence is deafening,
People can be annoying,
Music is my air.

Silence gets you no where,
People can be stupid,
Music is beauty.

Silence tears me apart,
People aren't smart,
Music puts the pieces together.

Prayer

Prayer is the soul's sincere desire
Prayer is the burden of a sigh
Prayer is the simplest form of speech
Prayer is the Christian's vital breath
Prayer is the contrite sinner's voice

I love this song that my seminary teacher showed us today in class. It spoke so much too me. Maybe it's because its in song. Maybe I am supposed to speak through song. And I know Zoe, you agree with that. <3 I've always loved music. And prayer I think isn't much different than writing a song. You think about it before, and the words just come, when the Spirit guides you. Prayer and song writing is also from the heart. And knowing that prayer is like a song, it just makes it so much more simpler to me. When I pray I never know what to say, but I just try to listen to the spirit. Now I'm not saying, I am going to sing my prayers, but if I'm having a hard time with praying, why not? :D

The Lord be with us as we walk
Along our homeward road.
In silent thought or friendly talk
Our hearts be near to God

The straight and narrow way to heav'n
where angels bright and fair
Are singing to God's praise, is found
Thru constant secret prayer

In the innocence of youth
We would all thy laws fulfill
Lead us in the way of truth.
Give us strength to do thy will

Wheelchairs and Injuries

So I busted my left ankle again-this time iceskating. And of course this all happened the DAY before I left for spring break. I sprained it both ways-biliteral sprain (I think it's called that...). This weekend my family and I went to California! :D It was very much fun, except for my stupid injury. Six Flags Magic Mountain-that's where this is all leading to. I had to use a wheelchair for that day, and while my brother and I had tons of fun going up and down hills, being in a wheelchair sucks. Yes, I got to get in the front of the line, but it was still pretty stupid. When you're in a wheelchair people either become one of two people-the I feel so sorry for you, or the I don't care you're not better than anyone else. You don't need to feel sorry. I think that's probably worse, because they make you feel helpless, like you can't do anything and are stupid. And while I don't want people to be jerks, just because you're in a wheelchair, you aren't better than anyone else. Now I was just in a wheelchair for a day-think about someone that has to spend their whole life in a wheelchair, how do you think they feel? And having these jerks make you feel like you can walk, get up. That's just stupid people being stupid people I guess. But when I am treated like there is nothing wrong with me, when there is, that irks me quite a bit. On another note, the bathrooms at this place were impossible to get through in a wheelchair and are tiny. There was only 4 stalls in one of them. This is an amusement park people, hundreds of people-everyone has to pee at some point. But whatever, I just think that we should think more about others. Because their living their lives too.

Happy Easter

On this Easter Sunday, I am listening to my wonderful church's General Conference. Most of the talks today have been spoken about what Christ did for us. And when you think about it, no one can imagine what Christ felt as he suffered for our sins in gethsemane. Jesus Christ bled from every pore, and He felt every pain that we have felt, in a small time, when we feel our pains over a lifetime. Jesus Christ overcame death and was resurrected, and because he was resurrected, we will too. And isn't that an awesome feeling-to know that we will live again in perfection! For me that is amazing, because I know that even after I die, I will be able to live again with my family. That, for me, is the greatest feeling in the world. And I also know that Christ atoned for my sins, so that I can repent for my sins and be clean. I love knowing these things because this makes me happy. Christ did so much for us, and I know that when I think that no one else has gone through what I have gone through, I can know that He has. Isn't that amazing?
Happy Easter everyone! And enjoy the blessings of the Savior.
He is my Prince of Peace and the King of Kings.
Just some thoughts,
Robyn

Six Word Memoirs

Just some past writing on books that I've read:

Song of the Sparrow
Lisa Ann Sandell

How could you take him away?
I felt like that annoying kid.
And I felt bad why, thinking…

The Princess Diaries
Meg Cabot

Did you really just say that?
You see, I’ve got this crush…
Why can’t you understand my problems?!

Princess in the Spotlight
Meg Cabot

He wrote those letters to me?
Did I really just say yes?
Why did he kiss me, anyway?

Party Princess
Meg Cabot

I’m not meant to do this.
I wish I could impress him…
Am I really the right girl?

Vampire Academy
Richelle Mead

Never thought you would be first.
I’m really not like that… sometimes…
Don’t worry about me, but you.

Bound
Donna Jo Napol

Sometimes dreams do come true, right?
Just wish it could be me.
And they lived happily ever after.

Project Paris
Lisa Brown

That outfit is so last year.
Walked in at the WRONG MOMENT
Can you say fabulous girlfriend, please!

LIfe Lesson: Music

I've had music in my life ever since I was a child. And it's done so much for me. I can sing, dance, and know Bible stories. Today in Sunday school, we learned about Joseph. He was sold into slavery by his brothers at 17, sent to prison for something he didn't do, and then became the Pharaoh's #1 man. I knew the whole story before we began, why? Because of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, a MUSICAL! I wanted to sing the whole lesson, and did...but don't you see (whoever "you" are) what music can do for a person. Music can lift you up, and teach you so many things.
Now: onto homework. boo....

I Survived a Slurpy Attack

Let's recap what you've missed in my life, since I last posted something.

1. I'm getting a splint retainer thing for my jaw.

2. I've had a lot of freakin' homework, and it sucks.

3. I love dancing--6 days a week.

4. I survived that slurpy attack. (It was very traumatizing.)

5. Some 7th graders think I'm a creeper. (And I'm not explaining that one...)

6. I had a weird St. Patricks Day....

But I will explain St. Patricks Day. I wish I had a camera at school today. It was really cool to see how many shades of green were in the hallway. It was the most amazing thing, I think I've ever seen. With so many students at our school, the hallways are like sardine cans. Although that may be, it was really spectacular to see the many greens in the hallway. And now I've got to do all my AP/honors homework that I've been procrastinating. And I said sorry to those 7th graders....because I yelled at them, and I felt bad...

My First Pair of Pointe Shoes

Today, I realized the problem I've been having with my pointe shoes-I haven't felt comfortable going all the way onto my box (the flat top)-is that my right shank is totally broken. For those of you that don't know, they shank is the piece of wood in the shoe that is the soul, with it broken, it is impossible to use. Passing on my first pointe shoes is hard. I feel extremely attached to them, so I'm keeping them (first I will hopefully make them not smell anymore...). I want to keep all my pairs of pointe shoes and make a memorial to them, kind of weird, yet kind of cool. I am hopefully getting new ones as soon as possible. Wish me luck in all my pointe shoe endeavors.

Here they are before they died:

This is the photo of them that got published in the Sun Magazine for military kids in the pacific area-Korea, Guam, and Japan.

UPDATE:

I got new pointe shoes today! They're so pretty and clean! And very hard! I can't move them at all! CRAZY!